HELP's Sports Carnival 2007

Econs Dept. ACTUALLY has a Netball team! We were just a bunch of people who wanted to play some ball for something and got our names on the same piece of paper at the Econs Dept. for weeks and never met until the day before the match.

To our surprise, we 'clicked' instantly as individuals and also as a team....why? cos' people like Rachel and Laura are a match made in heaven for LAMERZ. Seriously, think you know lame? Wait till u see these 2 new found friends together, *faints*

So we met the day before.... so what? We were planning to NOT Win anything anyways. How could we? A-Levels were training for weeks on end already and they had like 2 teams for ONE dept?? And 1/2 of us don't even really know how to play netball (like me).

Last Saturday was match day, we waited for "ALL" of us to come (some couldn't make it 4 the one day b4 crash-course training), but wait... one, two, three, four, five, six and seven.... Thats it? Seven players for a 7 player per team game? SO means what? No substitutes? Oh well, not that it's that big a deal right? Its not like we'll need substitutes.... It's only 7mins per 1/2 and it's only 2 games for one whole day.... unless....

Top:Econs Netball Team (Silver!) more pics of the team soon..., Bottom:A-Levels vs Poor Psych.Dept.

we win something. And you bet we did, many games in fact, that soon we were in the FINALS, fighting for the GOLD!...Omginess, you kidding me, the GOLD?

Sadly, we didn't make it, Tayar Pancit.

In the end? We're one proud team, oh yes we are....cos interestingly, ECONS dept has NEVER EVER in HELPS' history came this far.....ever

Changing times...

A Shining star, that's what I want to be... Whatever happens, whatever changes....

Lately, I've been having thoughts, lots of them. I thought about what truly makes me happy in life? (what's truly importat) I've always wanted to do everything, and anything.... Thats why I did sciences and arts in A-Levels, thats why I was in grief when I 'had' to give-up science for social science. That's why, I never gave my social science a 100% chance, I never realised my full potential after I was forced to focus on a particular area. I felt imcomplete, un-whole, like, I was not all-rounded. I felt remorse for not being active in many many things in college. Sometimes when I walk by a poster on Aiesec, Toastmasters, Raleigh.... I thought, I could be part of that? But then, I want to be part of everything! When I browse YOUTUBE, I see prodigies playing their piano, and I thought, I can play that piece too! Then, I'm regretful again, for not spending time on the piano, not realising my 'fullest potential'.

And that's MY biggest problem and mistake. I always think I am not realising my 'full potential'. But how can I? If i want to be at my 'fullest potential' at Everything and Anything? Logically, this sounds very stupid, even a 5 year old kid can tell you that it's stupid, but when you're running on the threadmill without a stop button, you keep running...

It's about time I learnt to let go... thats why I started to think about what truly makes me happy in life?

Here's what I came up with:

1. Relationship with God

2. Relationship with family and my closest friends

3. My grades

4. My body, being fit

5. Social contribution

And thats all. 5 things. Should have done this earlier.....sighs...

Rejected but nah, not dejected...

It's been a hell of a week... People feeling sorry for me, me feeling sorry for myself, people being helpful, feeling helpless, being angry and all sorts of emotions and feelings, all thrown into one place.

So then, do i have a plan now? Yea, of course, like I've told myself before this countless of times, that if Malaysia is it, then let it be it? It's hard to swallow, hard to accept, but yea, there must be something 'good' installed for me here isn't it?

My new 'action plan', in the 'pipeline' now (all the terms i've been learning from my seniors).
I'll not be nonchalant and lackadasical in learning anymore, because it has costed me and it wasn't a nice feeling. I can't always 'get away with it', high-school mentality was so yesterday. I should stop holding myself back, just to play cool and so when I fall, I will say, that was not my best, so if I did do my best, It could have been better.... From now on, it's time to go all out and take on the challenge and embrace it.

People (in general) are always saying, your uni degree is only a paper to get you a first job, I believed them, until now. It's an awesome feeling, when you are in the 'know' not in the 'dark'.
When people ask you a question about what you might have learnt before (highschool, college) and when you do know what they are talking about, there's a nice feeling about it. And i know why, because It'll be this feeling of, "Oh yea, this is how it applies, the 'stuff' we were learning in school" I've felt it, and I like that feeling, and this feeling is driving me to want know more.

Don't care what sort of knowledge it is. It can be dense things like politics or maths (i hate maths). It could be simple everyday things like, how come my company's printer has 4 diff trays and how do i 'instruct' the printer from my lappie to print from my 'desired' tray? all these things I want to know, so come world, come feed my brain, input me, anykind, I want to take it all in...

I've finally found my purpose for learning, and this time I will do it properly, learning for a reason.... Hopefully, along the way, I don't find out that I am incapable, I'm supposed to be just lazy...

Back to being pennyloo

Hi, this blog is,

Continued from my friendster blog : http://penny_loo.blogs.friendster.com/pennys_spasticity_down_in/
Then also continued from :
http://spasticitydowninwords.blogspot.com/

Because.....
Now, i prefer to be just pennyloo...